sadness

I'm feeling sad. 

It's not sad so to speak - but it's a range of emotions in my heart. Im feeling empty. It's the same feeling I feel every night when I get back home. 

Is it the night, the energy of the darkness thats pulling me down? 

Or is it that in darkness, I can truly see the hollowness of my existence. 

Is my existence hollow? 

What does it mean to be hollow? 

Is it to be bereft of any identity? 

Is it a disease? 

I have no answers. 

So I breathe. 

Paying attention to the breath. 

In. I close my eyes. 

Out. I keep my eyes closed. 

It feels calm here.